When I was younger, I always thought the sex I was having was like all sex, and like sex would always be: boring. I never knew that sex can really get better as you get older, or when you’re with a partner you’re truly comfortable with. Hopefully with the years to come it will get even better than it is now!

I was always that girl that was careless about sex. I enjoyed it somewhat, but didn’t care whether or not I had sex with a guy or a girl. Everyone thought I loved it, and I said I did. I felt like if I said I didn’t much care for it, then my partner at the time would think they did something wrong. So, from when I first started having sex up until not long ago, I kept up the charade that sex was amazing to me.
I always told guys that I just couldn’t have orgasms. Many would try and try, to the point of hurting me. I always acted like I loved whatever they were doing, just because they were trying so damn hard. I had assumed everyone’s sex life was as bad as mine, and this was considered good sex.
Boy, I had a lot to learn. I started reading about sex when I got my own computer as a teenager. I read erotica online, I read about the female anatomy and finally looked at my vagina, and best of all, I found my clit and g-spot!

I had read a lot about how to masturbate, and I tried quite a bit, but never quite got the hang of it. When I would admit this to a friend or boyfriend it was no surprise to them, they thought I had been doing it forever because they all thought I was crazy about sex. Nobody knew I wasn’t actually getting off, and many of my friends assumed I was.

Eventually I got with someone and had my first clitoral orgasm. And my next partner, who happens to be my current partner, gave me my first g-spot orgasm. I was finally having really good sex and really, really enjoying it. I don’t know why it took me so long to have an orgasm. I have yet to give myself a g-spot orgasm, but with the help of some toys I hope to do it soon. Maybe it’s just because I’m comfortable with my current partner that he is able to get me off.

I finally really love sex, not just think I do, or pretend to. By enjoying sex, I have learned more about my body. I’ve started masturbating a lot more often, and know now that I can have orgasms, and how to get myself off. I don’t ever feel like I have to please someone else and pretend. I’m completely comfortable with my boyfriend now and will say what I like or don’t like, or if I want something in particular done to me. I really love how much my sex life has evolved. I really am the one that’s crazy about sex in my group of friends now, not just the one that everyone thinks is.