I’ve always been very open sexually; I’ll say what I want and I’ll try new things. But one place I had never explored or known much about: sex toys. I had always wondered, and I had seen them online, but I was always afraid to use them and afraid someone would find them.

On my eighteenth birthday, I went into a sex toy shop for the first time, and I was overwhelmed by everything there was out there. There was a wall of vibrators, which I thought was insane at the time. And the beautiful glass toys that were sitting out. Well I was sure they were for display only and never dreamed I might one day be the owner of some and actually use them!

I went into sex stores with my friends a couple times just for fun. I was fascinated by everything and pointed out a cute, little, vibrating, keychain flashlight to a friend. She thought it was cute too and insisted she buy us both one. I didn’t know if I should use it or not, and ended up just keeping it in my purse and never even putting a battery in it. Now that I look back on it, I wish I had, so my mind could have opened up to sex toys at an earlier age.

My boyfriend, whom I’ve known for half my life, started asking me about sex toys when we first got together. I had told him I never used any, and while curious, didn’t have any motivation to try them. He said he had bought his ex-girlfriend a vibrator and she loved it, and I should get one too. I was skeptical, but eventually let him take me into a sex store. While in there, I picked out the least intimidating toy I could find- a little finger vibrator. It was cute and purple and didn’t look scary like all the other toys in there. I was nervous when the cashier rang us up, and once I was home I kept procrastinating using it.

My boyfriend asked me where it was one day, and I told him. He got it out and showed me that the vibrations are nice, and then he got me off with it. I was amazed at how nice the vibrations felt and how quickly I got off. That got me hooked on it. After that night, I used that thing as much as I could. My boyfriend bought me a lot of the little watch batteries it took, and I was in love. He eventually started pushing a big vibrator on me. I was afraid of inserting anything that wasn’t a tampon! I kept saying no to him, and giving all the excuses I could think of.

Months later I finally started to consider the option of a bigger vibrator. I looked at all my options online and found out there are a lot of cute ones that aren’t intimidating in the least. I pointed out what kind I liked to my boyfriend, and he got me one. I liked it best when I used it with him; it made me feel so close to him, since he’s the one that pushed me to get it. Quite a while later, I started considering getting more vibrators, or even anal toys. I think my boyfriend was shocked that I would consider getting more. HE was the intimidated one now.

I found Edenfantasys.com, and learned a lot about sex toys. Everything from the safety of the materials to what different toys can be used for. Buying toys from Edenfantasys was perfect for me when I was still nervous about it. Everything is discreet, and I can find out everything I want about the toy before I buy it. I’ve started quite the collection of toys since first finding Eden, and it’s still growing. My boyfriend was wary of the amount of toys I was accumulating, but grew to realize that I still want him no matter what, and it’s hard to believe I was ever scared of toys now.