I just wanted to share how finding sex toys and Edenfantasy has changed my life. I’m going to see if I can sum this up in less than a thousand words. I found Edenfantasys by mistake, and I kept leaving and coming back to this site, but for some reason something kept calling me back. I had always been curious about sex toys but never really acted on buying any. I was always too scared, and extremely unsure of myself. I’ve always loved the subject of sex, but I was ashamed that I did. I didn’t have the best encounters when it came to sex. I suffer from vaginismus, and once I learned it was something that could be treated, I started to become more intrigued with the idea of sex, and sex toys. I watched around the site for months before actually ordering anything. I remember my very first order with Edenfantasys. I had ordered the Super Sex Bullet, and Super Ballsy cock by Doc Johnson.

That was the first time I had ever tried out a sex toy, and I found myself hooked. I hid it from my boyfriend for the longest. It was only because I was scared and unsure what he would think about it. Before Edenfantasys, we never really talked about sex toys, and I never felt the need too. I mean, we walked into a couple of adult stores, but we never got anything. We just looked around and poked fun at the freakishly large dildos. Weeks after getting my first package, I broke down and told him about Edenfantasys, and he took it a million times better than I had ever thought he would. I told him all that I knew at that time about Edenfantasys, about the amazing program, and the reviews. He was kind of disappointed that I felt that I needed to hide this from him, and I felt bad because I didn’t even think he would have even cared.

He supported the whole sex toy thing, and I have to admit it made me look at him in a different light. I guess it was because I was scared, he would think I was a freak for wanting to deal with a site like one such as this, but he wasn’t. He actually came up to me and asked would I use one of them with him, and I was scared, but very happy at the same time. That first time using toys together opened our world up to something, I would have never thought it would have. I even turned him on to a couple of different items on the site.

As I got more involved with Edenfantasys, I realized that it was way more than just an online sex store. I met so many wonderful and beautiful men and women on this site. I met one woman who was open with me, and told me she too had suffered from vaganismus. I had been diagnosed with it, but never looked into seeking help. After talking to her, the following day I found a doctor. I don’t think if I would have ever looked for help if I hadn’t met her. I just would have been dealing with the problem. When I finally met my therapist, I told her about Edenfantasys and she fully supported my involvement in this community, and she thinks I should never let go of this.

I’ve met people on here that I’ve told things to that I didn’t think I could. I’ve written articles for Eden Cafe that I never in a million years though I could repeat, let alone put it out there for people to read. I’ve shared my secrets, and I’ve learned some new ones. I’ve cried, and laughed my head off with the community of Edenfantasys. I’ve been more open with the people of Eden, almost more than I’ve been with myself. Reading people’s posts in the forums, and just talking to them. I would have never built up the strength to write my abuser, and tell him how I really felt. Eden has helped me grow in ways I didn’t think were possible. This wonderful community has taught me to hold my head high, and to love myself and all the things that excite me.

I’ve opened my sex life to wonderful and beautiful things; my boyfriend has even discovered his lust for a good masturbator every now and then. When I’m talking about sex toys or just sex I feel confident, and I don’t really second guess myself. I talk more openly about sex, and don’t feel ashamed. I’m actually extremely proud of what I’ve learned here on Edenfantasys. I’ve fallen in love with different fetishes I didn’t even know existed. I’ve learned to be more comfortable with my sexuality. I’ve learned to be more demanding in bed, and to make sure to get what I need. I’ve learned to not be hard on myself, and that it’s always okay to be a little freaky (in the bed). I’ve met so many people here that have helped me in my life more than they could ever know. I find Edenfantasys to be therapeutic to the soul. It’s one of the few places I can be myself and don’t have to worry how people are going to view me.

Sometimes I think back and think finding Edenfantasys was a work of God. I don’t know where I would have been without them. I don’t know what type of life I’d be living if I had never found them. I know it seems as though I’m giving a lot of credit to the community more than anything. I trying to say that if it wasn’t for whoever created Edenfantasys, this community wouldn’t even existed.

Without the Eden’s point system, I would have NEVER ordered my first sex toys, which lead me to sharing it with my boyfriend, and created another outlet for us to love each other, which lead me to coming back and finding myself. I never would have thought in a million years that I would be where I am today, mentally, emotionally and everything else.

Edenfantasys has even changed my career goals. I had always wanted to become a plastic surgeon, even though I HATE math, I was determined to make it happen. But finding Edenfantasys has changed my mind. I’ve changed my major, and I’ve decided to become a sexual heath therapist. I want to pass on what I’ve learned, and hopefully I can help someone as much as Edenfantasys has helped me and changed my life. I’m happier and more comfortable in my sexuality, and in my whole self. The whole point of me writing this is to say thank you to Edenfantasys and to the community, and to share how you have all impacted my life. Even If we met in some small way, I know that it has made me a better person. It’s the second best thing that has happened to me besides meeting the love of my life.