I’m always afraid to say that I am extreme in my kink tastes. I think people will think that I am bragging or trying to one-up them. I don’t say it because I am afraid that people will think that I am trying to say that I am better than them- or kinkier than them. That’s not it at all. People everywhere have different levels of kink, whether you are ‘vanilla’ or ‘rocky road’ or whatever other ice cream flavor you want to compare yourself to.
From what I’ve seen in the kink community, and the people who have seen me play, I apparently like the more extreme things. I’ve been told that I am ‘quite an extreme edge player’. Edge play is things on the fringe- things that not everyone deems safe or smart to play with. Knife play, fire play, kicking, etc, those are all considered edge play by many. I don’t like putting such definitions on play just because I would prefer just to call it what they are- my kinks or your kinks.
I like to be beaten until I’m black and blue. One of my biggest desires is to be given a black eye. I like to be kicked and punched, repeatedly and excessively. I crave being slapped in the face. I like being choked and spit on. Knife play intrigues me to no end. Also- I want to be waterboarded. When people hear this they are a bit overwhelmed usually, or when they see a scene I am in they fear for me.
Before a scene at a local bdsm event I had told a couple of people that my tastes are on the extreme side. They pretty much patted my hand and assured me that ‘everyone thinks their tastes are extreme’. I didn’t take it to heart too much. If everyone did, that’s cool. I wasn’t bragging, I was just giving my view of my tastes. When my Man and I started our scene, there was nothing really out of the ordinary. However, by the end many people thought that he had gone too far in hurting me. They thought that I was hurt in a bad way, luckily the DMs (people in charge of looking over everyone and making sure everyone is safe/being respected) realized that what we were doing was right for us. After calming down and getting off from the high that I was on from getting beat so hard, a few people came up to me and mentioned that I play pretty hard or that I was too extreme for their tastes. I had to laugh because we dulled it down because we were in public! Apparently after that little event, it was okay to say that I play hard because they saw it. They knew in their head that it was true because they witnessed it.
However, now I am around a new group of kinky people, or talking to people online in the kink community. I am once again afraid to say that I play on the more extreme side. I am afraid that people will think that I don’t think their kink is ‘real’ or good enough, or whatever other silly thing they are going to assume from that statement. I wish they could just take my statement at face value, me talking about myself. Not putting them or their kink down.